Mommy Dearest

Got my yearly email from my birth mother. Y'all should know how dangerous I am by now. That's what apostates are right?

She means well. She just wants me to come back to Jehovah. It was funny though, this was the first time she tried to differentiate Him from the organization. It's just Jehovah, it's not the organization. Like saying, it's just Hitler, it's not the Nazis. You can trust him. What about all the child abuse cases in the media about how the JWs covered it all up?

The usual about how much I'm hurting her and my sister with my choice to stay away. Was it me who decided to sell of all my cherished family heirlooms for pennies to the JWs and not give me a chance to keep anything from my past so she could show up here a few days before she moved to Panama? With a box filled with my old report cards and all the gifts I'd ever given her?

Or to be my sister? Who invited me to her wedding and I said ARE YOU SURE? and she was like absolutely, you're my sister! So I saved up $700 for a present and bought a dress I couldn't afford and then she shows up the week before and says well the elders said you can't come.

But I'm the one hurting them. Of course I am.

She asked me to come to the district convention and I said, you know there's always a discourse on staying away from apostates and I'll be shunned all weekend? She said I should stop being sarcastic. Can I get a hell ya from any of the rest of you outcasts out there that that would be the way it would go?

They are so brainwashed they don't even understand the other side anymore. The reason I identify as an apostate is that they labelled me that. And to be honest, it's not like either of the two of them are sitting there with angel wings.

I told her I had the best friends. That my friends have been there for me through everything. That if I left I would have to give them up. She said you've been sick, you must be unhappy. I said well you and Erin have been going around for years telling people you're both dying so maybe you're not happy either.

My kinda on and off boyfriend always says we all live lives of quiet desperation. I'm not. And mum, unfortunately, I'm too busy to go to the district convention. You can send me the notes. I won't read them. I do love you though.

Sullivan out.

Disney sing-a-long?

Alright. I've been playing nice but time to be a bad person again. The JWs have gone insane. I realize those old white guys on the Governing Body are probably stressed because of this whole worldwide child abuse cover up scandal they are dealing with, but for your viewing pleasure this is hilarious. It's a video of a singing book cart. It's like something from a Disney movie that we weren't allowed to watch growing up because there was magic in it. Which of course is from Satan and the demons.

Now, in my opinion, as an ex-jw, those bookcarts are from Satan and the demons. I won't get too far into it but they are EVERYWHERE in my hood. It took everything in me not to push them over going back and forth from work. I won't say that I didn't stop when I had a minute to warn whoever was talking to them that they're a dangerous cult. Or tell them to pack up and get off the street. But this singing bookcart? He's actually pretty like-able. Like the singing candlestick from Beauty and the Beast. Who didn't like him?

To make things better, they did this. Apparently, if you sin against the holy spirit (high five all you apostates out there) Jehovah discards the person like "a piece of garbage". Well, hmmm. No wonder our families are afraid to talk to us. Brother whatever his name is made a video and put it on the internet where he poisoned his loaf of bread and threw it in the trash. Because that's what Jehovah wants to happen to us sinners. My first thought was, with all your legal bills on these child abuse scandals, should you really be poisoning and then throwing out perfectly good bread? Might make sense to save some money. :)

Religion is supposed to be about everything they are not - tolerance, love, forgiveness, mercy. Show me a God that preaches that and I'll sign up. In the meantime, my religion is being kind, loving everyone no matter what their religious or life choices are and not spreading hate. I have two Buddhas, two Ganesh and one of those waving Chinese cats. They all have fun names like Fred and Frank and Felix. I wear a Celtic cross around my neck, just because I love it and it makes my mother mad. I've got idolatry down.

So do they. This whole blue jw.org box is their new idol. I hope everyone who goes to that site sees it for what it is. A brainwashing tool with some catchy Disney-ish songs and a whole lot of unkindness buried underneath.

C'mon Watchtower, I know y'all are reading me. Disfellowship me again already. Until you do...I'm still dangerous to you.

Ps. Maybe don't watch the first video. That song gets in your head like Justin Bieber. I laughed literally until I cried. I watched it twice. I'm very embarrassed for them. :)

Sullivan out.