I've had an awesome weekend. My girlfriend got us tickets to Blue Rodeo, my favorite band on Friday night. They always play in Toronto within a week of my birthday, every February. They are always amazing.
I babysat my other girlfriends dog yesterday. If there's anything better than being at the beach in February with two dogs on Saturday morning, I don't know what that is.
My ex took us all out to the beach, despite the wreckage to his backseat with all the mud and paw prints. Then we went to the market, got a frame for the picture my girlfriend brought me from Japan. I was watching him trying to hang my newest favorite piece of art. Then he came with me to my friends place to help her rearrange her furniture on Saturday night. And I realized something.
I had to break up with the guy I've been seeing. I know birthdays are just an age. But at my age (which is definitely not 27) I know what I want. And what I don't want. Nice, handsome guys are a dime a dozen. I would know, I've dated dozens of them. :)
Maybe I'll never feel the way I felt with "The One". There's only one the one right? But if I can't be madly in love again, maybe that's not a bad thing. My therapist thinks the sweet spot that I'm in now is a good thing. We were talking about it on Friday. I love my life. And all the people in it. There's no one though who could decide to walk away tomorrow and it would destroy me the way he did. And then my sister and my mom did. Over and over again.
New guy is a nice guy. And Lindsay thinks it was a bad move to break up with him over text. But seriously, if a guy never called you a phone call would be weird. And how many of them have broken up with us over text?
My ex is an ex for a reason. But he's also one of my best friends. And isn't that an important factor in the equation? Yes, the passion and lust and all that is nice. At the end of the day, the guy who helps you make your home better, who supports you even when you're making mistakes, who cuddles you when you sleep, who believes in you even when you lose your way is the one I would prefer to grow old with. Even just as friends. :)
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