I can't think of a better place to spend a Saturday morning then right here in my apartment. Talking to you. Enjoy the free ride while you can, one of these days I'll have to hoard all my words and sell them. Now, I give them away for free.
I thought I should follow up my last blog with something a little more upbeat, if only so y'all know that I'm not upset, I just find the JW organization upsetting. But it's ok, because I'm doing something about it.
The great thing about starting over in life is that you can be whoever and whatever you want to be. I'm sure this is a little premature, but now that I've rocked it in Toronto, I'm ready to move on. I've realized that it doesn't really matter where you are, as long as you have somewhere you can make home and a laptop. (This blog is upsetting the Cat. She's not as adaptable to change as I've become.)
Where will we go next? The possibilities are endless. Hopefully somewhere that they don't eat Cats for dinner. That rules out most of southeast Asia. Maybe New York? Living there is on my (also hopefully premature) bucket list. Europe? Despite the cat issues I'd still love to live in Asia. This year, we got our shit together. Next year, we'll do something entirely different and completely awesome.
The past four years have been an interesting journey. The first two, I really didn't accomplish anything besides crying and mourning the passing of a life I once loved. The next two were a strange combination of recklessly reliving (for the first time) my 20s and working my ass off because I felt so far behind in life.
The thing about getting to where you want to be in life, is...where do we go from here?
The next logical step would be to take all this work I've done on myself the past couple of years and settle down, let someone else in. Fall in love. And I've been trying to do that. (Not for long, maybe just a few minutes now.) But I was telling my brother today all the elaborate reasons that Vienna had to cancel his trip here in a couple of weeks, the one I took a week off work for, and he just looked at me and said "And you believe that?". And I have to admit, I don't.
So whatever the untold future holds, no more men for the moment. But if anyone in San Francisco or New York wants to offer me a job, I'm ready to pack up and move on. The Cat will just have to deal with it. :)
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