Yes I did just steal a Beatles song title.
It's ok though because I'm not famous yet and no one will notice. One of my best friends is out of town this weekend so last night I went on a date with her boyfriend (we're cool about that). And I have to say, at the end of the day, I've been very blessed when it comes to making new friends.
It's weird here on the outside, before I could only have friends who were in the group, the same kind of people as I was. Now, anything can happen. My best friend is a lesbian. And although it would be completely unacceptable as a J-dub, it totally doesn't matter now at all because now I live in a world where people are just people, whoever they are, and we're all perfectly imperfect together and to be honest that takes a lot of the stress off.
I love my people. I've struggled like probably all of us have, with trying to be perfect and coming up short of that. And I miss my mom and my sister. But I've found people who fill in those gaps: Liz, Lindsay, Krista, my secret life friend who was here today and gone tomorrrow. We spent the day having a picnic in the park, took a nap, went for coffee. I haven't had a panic attack in three days since he's been home. He's leaving again though, so the panic will come back.
But that's ok. Jersey Shore keeps telling me that stress kills and I don't doubt him. However, if I had never taken the plunge to start over again, I never would have met the very people who keep me alive now. And as much as I miss the past, missing my future would have been the worst tragedy.
nice message. yesterday is gone isn't it?
ReplyDeletethere is always only today.