The Happiness Project

Side point - is anybody else sick of all my catchy titles stolen from songs and movies? For some reason I have a problem coming up with my own titles.

The rest of my content? Original.

My cat is sleeping in the sun. It's a beautiful day in Toronto. Sun is shining, snow on the ground. I woke up this morning with two other girls in my bed, another one on the couch. I rolled over and cuddled Linnea, before I realized who it was sleeping beside me. Monique is here, and somehow, that makes life better. My mother wants to go to a movie with me tonight. I have no idea how I got here.

But I did. And I think it's so so so so important that people out there know how happy and at peace I feel today. I won't lie. It's been three years of pain, tears, hard work, fear, anxiety, loneliness.

Taking the road less travelled is never the easy option. I had to work very, very hard at becoming happy again. The Happiness Project was a long, tedious chore. And I got scarred and bloody and felt like giving up so many times and just going back to the safe and familiar. It was literally hell on earth. But it's over. This "new beginnings" junkie is going into the new year happier than she's ever been. If you want to change your life, you can. It's not easy, but it's completely worth it...I love my family. I have the best friends. It's a success story.

Even with Travis getting married. Even with Adam at home having Christmas with his wife. I'm happy for both of them. They were such an important part of the journey that brought me here. Tapping into those memories from the past will always be part of my future. But the future, although sometimes it seems it will never arrive, is here. Today, tomorrow. Always. There will always be a chance to heal old wounds, make things right, fix relationships, show more love and kindness. Be a better person.

In my monster list of new year's resolutions, I am going to detox, finish school, figure out how to be a real writer. Life is a series of hills and valleys, but I'll try to hold on to this feeling of happiness as long as possible. Happy New Year!