Count on Me

"If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, I'll sail the world to find you. If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see, I'll be the light to guide you. We find out what we're made of when we are called to help our friends in need. You can count on me like 1,2,3 I'll be there. And I know when I need it I can count on you like 4,3,2 and you'll be there because that's what friends are supposed to do."- Bruno Mars

This is your perfect Sunday morning song. I know I say that a lot. :)

I have had the lucky opportunity to meet some amazing people at my job. For the sake of anonymity I won't name names. Those two know who they are. When I started this new job I felt really stupid. My performance manager and I used to call it my made up bullshit job. I was the one who started that.

It turned out to not be true. I'm finally feeling like I'm an asset to the team instead of a liability. There is nothing I can do to repay the kindness I've been afforded. They've watched me go from a suicidal girl to someone they can actually be proud of.

When things went down with my sisters wedding last February, I literally felt my heart shattering inside me. And that's not being dramatic. It's true. Fortunately I work for a company that practices what they preach. They realize that mental health issues are as important as physical illness. And they bet on me being the kind of person who could go from that to being someone who they could count on. And they can. I will do anything to prove that I'm worth their trust, their support, their faith in me.

My family will always hold power over me and how I feel about myself. These guys are my family too now. Sometimes family is just some random people you meet along the way. When my boss told me the other day he was proud of me I almost cried. I don't get a lot of positive reinforcement.

I have enough people though that believe in me and I can count on them. And they can count on me :)

Sullivan out.