Shelter from the Storm

Suddenly I turned around and she was standing there. With silver bracelets on her wrists and flowers in her hair. She walked up to me so gracefully and took my crown of thorns. "Come in" she said, "I'll give you shelter from the storm". - Bob Dylan

Big Easter weekend push people. Let's finally hit the 10,000 reads I'm looking for on this blog. Jesus and the Cat want you to read it. She's sitting here being very supportive as we speak.

It will make me more motivated to do homework all day if that helps. So, I have a lot of feminist ramblings on here, I know I keep telling everyone that you can do it on your own, love yourself, all that stuff. And I really hate how Eat, Pray, Love just ends with her getting married again. But on the other hand, there's a big part of me that thinks once we hit our 30s, we're all just a little bit jaded. If we're still single, we've survived heartache and maybe, we are just secretly scared of being happy.

Unlike when we were 20, now we know that it could all go away, overnight even. BUT. If we're too scared to keep trying, what's going to happen? We'll end up alone. And you don't want to be old and alone. You won't always be this cute.

I'm not saying I've got it all figured out. I've got my own issues. I've dated so many guys who I knew from the moment I met them, they were going to leave. And that's probably why I dated them. If you know from the beginning they will leave, there's no real risk. Or fear.

But hey, soooo many of my friends - I'm talking to you. You have a great girlfriend/boyfriend. Stop being crazy and just go with it. I know how hard this is. I'm struggling with that myself. Someone I love married her husband when she was 31. It was a really messed up situation, involving ex's and kids...but they made it work, and it wasn't easy in any way. They are one of the best love stories I know though, and all these years later she told me every time she hears his truck drive up the driveway, her heart beats faster. They support each other, through good times and bad ones. Isn't that what you want?

Friends are great. I spent yesterday with Liz and I honestly don't know how I'd still be here without her. I hope someday we both have kids and they become great friends and we all spend the holidays together. But Life is not easy, and most of the time, not even fair. Friends can get you through the tough times, but if you have someone to come home to, who will give you a big hug when you walk in the door, help you laugh about the things that happened through your day, you're just that much better off.

(Yes, Vienna is turning me back into a hopeless romantic.)

The shit that happened to you in your life, wasn't fair. Some of your parents were jerks, who shouldn't have ever been allowed to have kids. What we do, going forward though, is up to us and no one else. We can stay stuck in the bad stuff and blame other people, or we can realize that we're in control, there's no rules out here in the real world. Anything we really want, we can make that happen.

Having someone to go to, when the storms hit (and they always will), is what it's all about. LOVE. Let the walls down, open up and let that person in who will shelter you. You deserve it, and so do they.

And read some of my blogs. It will make Jesus happy.

Being Brave

Giving Thanks

Faith, Hope and Love

You complete Me

Sting of the Scorpion

Coming Full Circle, Ending Up Somewhere Completely Different

A Glance in the Rearview Mirror