Waxing Poetic

I received another Christmas present last night. I love ALL my presents! I imagine I'm just really easy to shop for because all you have to do is pick up a book or some fancy makeup or a pretty necklace and I'm a happy girl. I am going to put this out there though, because my birthday is coming up next: I really am set now for lipgloss. You can totally put that on the list for next Christmas, I love it, but for now I'm good, probably well into 2014. I'm not sure if this very popular gift this year says something about me, I'll admit I am slightly obsessed with always having pretty lips. 

Thanks to all you lovelies out there, I can now spend the precious few days left of my vacation reading, looking pretty and smelling good. Thank you. :)

So I had dinner last night with my adopted family, lent to me by my most handsome ex of all time. I feel so normal there now it doesn't really matter about the fact that I'm adopted. I have my own spot at the dinner table, I can talk to them about anything and I really do feel more like a kid than a grown-up when they are pouring me juice, knitting me leg warmers, fretting about how much am I working? and dropping me off at the subway at the end of the night with a hug. And it makes my heart feel oh so happy.

Now I know I wax poetic on here a lot. One of my friends actually told me I should just tell the truth more. But this is the happy version of the truth. And I think I'm way more honest than people are on FaceBook, where they only ever post the pictures they look gorgeous and happy in, and then everyone sits around and secretly compares their life to all their "friends" whose lives seem perfect. 

Truth of the matter is, life throws a hell of a lot of shit at you. And doing something drastic like I did and deciding to change your entire life, as an adult is not easy. So many of us need to decide to do that though to finally find our path. 

I'll tell you a secret: sometimes it was really hard to write those posts and find someway, somehow to put a positive spin on it. I'll tell you another secret: doing it, finding a way to make it funny or optimistic, is what keeps you going. Keeps your head above water (even if only barely) through the tough times until things get better. Because you're telling yourself that as bad as everything seems right now, you'll be ok. That helped me, even when I didn't believe it. And maybe you didn't believe I believed it either (and you were right).

I promise you, if you're willing to do the hard work it takes, it all turns out better than you expected. :)