Summer Solstice

Have you written anything lately? Nope. I've been blocked. It's not like nothing is happening. I could tell you lots of crazy stories if I wanted to. Last night I accidentally ended up at an Irish pub listening to some guys play Willy Nelson with an odd combination of guys I know from the bar downstairs. The benefits of being at a dive bar listening to Willy Nelson music in the middle of the night is that you can get up and dance without feeling stupid. It was fun. :)

I blame my computer for this recent blockage. It's uninspiring. I need to go out and buy another Mac. Friday was, however, the first day of Summer. Although it's been cloudy and wet in Toronto, we can all be happy that winter/spring is finally behind us and here we are at the start of a new season.

We all know I'm a new beginings junkie, but I'm a bit of a oxymoron here because I also hate starting over. And when things change. Way too sentimental, I still have a picture of my ex-husband in my bedroom. I still miss him. One of my friends is also moving forward from the past, and it kills me a little on the inside. I know we each make our own choices. I know I'm better off with Travis married to Nicole and me on my own now.

I know we should all be grateful for our lives and all the good things, but every once in awhile shouldn't it be ok to say, "this sucks".

I think it should be. Sometimes in life, things you really want just don't work out the way you hoped they would. Being halfway through the new year, it's easy to think about how little progress we've made on what we had hoped to accomplish by now. OR, we can take a different approach. We can say hey, it's halfway through the year, time to re-evaluate. Track down you list of New Year's resolutions and re-focus.

In that train of thought, I ordered a new juicer, went back to yoga and decided to make some changes. I booked a trip home. There's really nothing better to help you get grounded again than going home. (4 more sleeps!)

I don't know about you, but I think this will be a great summer. Despite not hitting all the targets I set for myself this year, I did accomplish a lot. Between work, school, and just general healing, I can't complain at all about how 2013 has been treating me. There's still 6 months to go though, so after this well-deserved break which will include tons of giggles with people who actually have known me for longer than a year, I'll be back and ready to take on whatever the second half of the year wants to throw at me. Lately, that's been a lot of good things. :)