One of my besties came by and we did our gift exchange. All my friends are all over the place, I don't have a "crew" per se, so I had to do all these different Christmas exchange dinners and meet ups all week. He got the worst one. I was leaving the next day and he was like we can't do Christmas after New Years. So he came over and saw me in at my worst. I love him because he's so kind, so sweet and he always tell me I'm so beautiful. Inside and out. I was not beautiful that night.
He goes by 21 and I'm 27 but we know each others' real ages. We went to a drag show I literally dragged him to in a snowstorm on November 11th. Hello, my name is Margaux and I'm in love with Benny Drama. No one else would have come with me.
That's why I still believe every day, not just our birthday, not just New Years, not just a changing season, can be a new beginning and we don't know what it will bring. One weekend I picked up a random extra job on a movie set and of course was drawn to the most genuine person in the room. That was more than half a year ago. My boyfriend will tell me if you're calling him now I'm watching a movie because your conversations are never less than 3 hours long. It's true.
I know most of you don't believe this but I know who I knew in my past lives and who I didn't. Gawd, I love Jay but he's new in this life. This other guy, we have been re-united. Both of us live on that side of the rainbow where we're not quite there yet but we see the other side so we are always looking for the positive. Over the rainbow. :)
Unique in our own ways, I call him the Unicorn and he calls me the mermaid. One half in reality one in the sense of wonderment over what can be. That's what keeps us young. He showed up for the show about 5 minutes after me. We had to show ID at the door. The girl checking it was like you're seriously messing with me. That's not real. I'm like yah it is, that's my real birthday. She just shook her head and let me in. Then he showed up. She was like, no way. There's two of you? Is this real? You must be with that blonde girl who doesn't age.
Jay says age is all in our mind. I'm sure it'll catch up with us eventually but for now, we're still just a bunch of adult kids making the most of life, one day at a time.
He got me this for the tree. Cheers to a New Year, to good friends and to be open to what the future holds for all of us. Wishing everyone all the best in 2020.
Sullivan out.
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