They tricked us. Heaven and hell - they are both just places on earth. During this recent epidemic it's more hell than heaven. But people though are stepping up. Some are going crazy, but a lot have learned to be kinder. To help those in need. The majority of us have stopped thinking about ourselves and take measures to keep others safe.
To leave food or flowers outside the door for our neighbours. To wear a mask when we go out. And keep friends that we desperately need and miss 6 feet away, if we see them at all. No more hugs no more parties. IF we are doing this right and are hoping us and the people we love to get through it.
I need to be particularly careful because I have stage 4 liver disease. I'm tired of hiding so there it is. Stage 4 is the last stage so I have anywhere from tomorrow to forever (if someone wants to volunteer a piece of their liver). Yah I drank too much. I had lost my entire life, not that it's a reason to be self destructive but show me someone who hasn't, considering the circumstances. Then I got e.coli probably from a spinach salad trying to be healthy. They gave me a 10% chance to live. Then the topper was needing a blood transfusion and being given the wrong blood. I think I had less than a 10% chance that time. The doctors thought they killed me that time and it was their fault.
I've been feeling sorry for myself the past two days, I'm over it. My therapist says my bounce back time is really really good now. Doctors have no idea what they are doing but if I die young I'm okay with that. Jay and I would like to travel a bit so hopefully it's not tomorrow that takes me :)
Please keep safe and protect your health ....
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Feeling really sad to read of your passing Margaux. We were coworkers at KPMG, and I was an avid reader of your blog back then. You instilled in me an understanding, and rage against, cults and JWs, hearing how this impacted every aspect of your life, and reading about the trauma you experienced. If Jay or any of Margaux's beloved friends revisit this blog to feel close to her, please know you are not alone. There are people from her past, me included, who still think about her, who she impacted greatly, who she mattered too.
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