Her Crazy is Beautiful

Of all people, Lindsay has finally decided she likes country music. I love it, but I live in Toronto now, no one likes country. She keeps sending me these songs. You should check out Luke Combs. He's got a lot of good songs but there's this one where he says she's crazy, not afraid to take chances, wears her heart on her sleeve. But her crazy is beautiful to him.

Sometimes I feel like I'm crazy. I wear my heart on my sleeve, hell I have a tattoo of my mom and my sister on my arm (but they are birds). I've been through a lot. My partner calls me crazy but in a cute, loving way. Like he watches me talk to myself when I'm writing in my head and stay up all night to write papers for school and spend money buying flowers for a girlfriend when I think she needs them even though it means I only have $17 left in the bank after. And almost done an MBA but working for minimum wage in a flower shop.

I couldn't be more done with corporate, so I'm learning the ropes on how to start my own business. I've taken big chances in the past but I did it alone. He supports me. He just wants me to be happy. It makes a huge difference. 

I have this friend from home who lives in Halifax and we always talk about how most people in Toronto kinda suck. But I've been lucky here. I've met the best and the worst people. The best ones have stuck around despite anything I've gone through. I adopted my dog and two cats since I've been here. I made lifelong friends. I have these little "nieces" and "nephews" who make up for the fact I never got to have kids.

Awhile ago I thought about moving home, but there's not really anything left for me there. Now I go to the country on the weekends with my boss so it's a perfect mix. My husband/boyfriend is not the jealous type, neither of us are, so he encourages me to go away because he works all weekend anyways. Max and I come home so tired and happy from the fresh air and wide open spaces. If I'm lucky I get to pick moss for the flower shop and dig trenches to plant peonies and make all the veggies for bbqs.

Lindsay says I'm such a hippy, I love everyone and that's why I cry sometimes. It's true I love all the people from my past life but the people I love most are the ones who have stuck with me through the crazy times. I'm very grateful. :)

They all say there's someone out there for everyone. If you are very very lucky you find that person and more and they all love your crazy and find you beautiful despite it. :)

Sullivan out.