Apparently it's been said that people who escape a cult are just as traumatized as those who have survived war.
My own personal "Vietnam" was an escape of sorts. A horrible, disabling, traumatizing, depressing escape from ideas and beliefs that were indoctrinated in me since I was a child. It honestly was a war, and I'm not sure if the battle wounds will ever fully heal.
The guilt, anger, sadness and resentment could literally kill you, or push you to want to kill yourself. But survival seems to be what human nature is all about, and two years later, life doesn't seem all that bad.
The only real truth is that we need to love each other. We need to be kind to one another. We need to stop judging, stop hurting others. "Love each other or perish."
If you're unhappy, and blindly following something that's being promoted as "truth", you don't have to continue. You can get out. And we can help.